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Ironic

Ironic how he's asking me to let you rest,
When I wanted to tell him the same thing before this.

I guess that's where I stand now.

Get back up everytime you fall

It's like a huge wall in front of me. No matter how many times I get up, I still hit it and fall back down.

But you know what, I'm not going to sit behind the wall for all my life. I will get over it whether I climb over it or break it or walk through it somehow, it doesn't matter. The thing is, I will get pass it.

You were my biggest world.

You know how I always tell
you not to make me your only
world?

Well without realizing I actually
made you my biggest world
and everything else around is
so much smaller as compared
to you.

This is one of the reason why
I find it so difficult to get over
the break up. You have many
worlds, you lost one. I lost
one but my biggest world.

It's like I'm empty inside of
me. I need to fill up the void.

I always taught you how to be
strong but I forgot to teach
myself as I'm too busy trying
to teach you.

Get up, Justin. Go be strong.

It was an honour and a privilege to love you.

It was an honour and a privilege to love you.

What we had and shared together was so good and those are the happiest moments of my life. I wouldn't want to change any of those moment.

Yes, I know things are different now and we are no longer together but I will never stop wishing the best for you and I want you to be happy all the time.

You taught me how to love, how to be loyal, how to be a better boyfriend, and how to be a better person.

I have never loved anyone else as much as I love you and I don't know if I'll ever love like this ever again but maybe I will because it feels so right but it's a matter of whether my heart can go through another of this.

I may have afew other relationships before you but to me, I would consider this as the first time I truly love and took a relationship seriously. It's like you're my first love because the love was different.

No, I don't hate you and I can never hate you. I don't dislike you either. You will always have a special spot in my heart. How can I possibly hate someone who brought so many good things in my life? I rather just focus on the awesome and wonderful things we shared rather than the bad things which came between us.

So don't you worry okay, I don't hate you. I want us to keep in touch and remain as friends because I don't want to lose you forever.

Maybe one day we will be together again? I don't know. I can never say never because things can always change again. Not back to what we were but maybe a new us. A better us? I don't know, that's for the future to tell.

For now, I'll get over this break up by planning something big in my life for 2015. I'll stay away from feelings and emotions and relationships because that's the last thing I need. No rebound. I want to be successful.

All the best, and take care.

Justice.

"Why love if it's going to end?"

Someone asked me,  "Why love if it's going to end?"

The thing is you can never predict the future and you can never predict the uncertainties that are going to happen in a relationship no matter how much you plan

Of course when it ends, you'll feel and wish like the relationship never happened and you never loved. it's real that feelings and emotions often fuck us up. But I rather loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

When you're in love with someone who loves you back, that's one of the most magical feeling ever. And those happy moments and wonderful experiences the both of you share, those are priceless. You can't buy that. And you can't feel that when you're not in love.

When you miss someone and they miss you as well, when you see someone who wants to see you as much. When you get hug someone who wants to be hugged by you. When you get the hold the hand of someone who wants you to hold it. This feeling can't be explained through words because it has to be felt.

When you get to visit the places and eat the food you love with the person you love. When you get to spend the night together even without talking or even touching but yet it feels so right and secure.

When someone sees you more than what you are. Make you feel better than what you are. Sees beyond the imperfection but still love you perfectly. It's unbelievable, the feeling really is unbelievable

But when uncertainties come in and things change, those feelings are lost and no longer mutual. It's painful to go through such thing.  Love changes people but pain too, changes people. The pain would even sometimes feel unbearable. No amount of tears can make the pain feel any lesser

You can't delete the memories in your head no matter how much you want to, but why delete it? Those were the best moments of your life and deleting it means you are only losing yourself more. Why not build a new wall, start a new life but bringing in the happy moments in your life together with it.

It will take time and a lot of dark moments in your life but it is not impossible to get over a relationship. Time will heal everything.

The end of the relationship is not the end of your life. There's so many good memories and positives you can take it from it. So many lessons you can learn from it to make you a better and stronger person.

You got to stand up, pick up the pieces of you, pick up the pieces of your broken heart, and mend it back together. It will not be perfect because we are not made to be perfect. Scars remind us of who we are and what we have been through. You will stand up taller and stronger.

Ask me again do I regret being in love eventhough it ended?
I will answer you "no" a million times. The feelings, the moments, the experience, and everything was real and priceless.

Well, it's just the same as why live if you're going to die.

Make the best out of everything.